Differentiate you and the body. Don’t kill the body. Question yourself. Who am I? Why is this happening to me? What emotions am I feeling? And breathe. Read something like this. Be warned, it may trigger. You’ll survive. All is ephemeral, even the worst.
Why not explore this feeling? I discovered that I am never really lonely, but can convince myself I am. Read inspiring texts about loneliness. Open up philosophy. Perhaps this, including an animation with a twist on being alone. Love yourself. It will make you independent of longing for anyone. Or be left in the thick of it. Ok as well. Nothing wrong with that. Depression? More should experience it. It contains great discovery for those who are willing.
Why need an answer? Ever thought of self inquiry? Yeah, life can be seen as useless. It is one of many ways of looking at it. Which makes you mistake yourself to be the body and blame flesh and bone. Just do not kill it literally. Eat yourself symbolically. Ask till you need no answers. Inquire. Hardcore spirituality. Not the cushion sitting breathing and chakra turning. Read the masterpieces. Then consider stepping on a bridge again. Life is useless, in a way. As well as believing you have a life and wanting to end it. Who needs belief, anyway? Who am I? is sufficient to ask over and over until it dissolves you. Sure, I wanted to die a couple of times. Perhaps it fueled to see through the illusion of ‘me’. If your mind is open, take advice. Else, leave it. Thanks for reading, either way. |
